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Pre-Finals Mania

What’s up, dear blog? I’m going to be dead next week when I have five finals, three of them in one day from 8am-6:30pm. I just love the scheduling of my life. I’m hoping that I don’t bomb them and destroy the grades I’ve worked to the death to accomplish this semester.

Last month I watched the historical drama Schemes of a Beauty 美人心计 and promptly fell in love with a few male historical figures and the actors themselves. I’m sure the male audience of the drama was even more pleased; true to its title, Meiren Xinji abounds with beauties. I’m still in awe and fascinated by the politics, warfare, and court intrigues of the early Han Dynasty. This craze even beats my fervent interest in the Liao and Song dynasties.

Today I translated the lyrics to Luo Hua 落花, the theme song for Schemes of a Beauty and sung by the lead actress Ruby Lin. The past few weeks I also translated excerpts from Jin Yong’s wuxia novel Sword Stained With Royal Blood 碧血剑, Gu Long’s novel The Tale of Refining the Sword like Cleansing the Flower 浣花洗剑录, and tidbits of dialog from the latter’s 2007 drama version. I’m thinking of perhaps starting a translation collection (a portfolio blog?) of my Chinese-English translations over winter break.

I watched about 15 episodes of 浣花洗剑录 in two days until I stopped due to lack of free time and declining interest. Unfortunately, while searching for a summary of the series I stumbled upon a spoiler that broke my heart. I lost all inclination for continuing the series because I moped in misery for a good three days over the tragic fates of my favorite couple in the series, Mu Lang Shen Jun and Princess Tuo Chen. My body was literally wracking with sobs during their final scene and I cried so much that my eyes were terribly dry for hours afterwards. Needless to say, I love them to death. It’s the first time I am so truly endeared to any tragic couple because I love both of them without reservation. Usually I am either drooling bucketfuls over the male lover or desperately wanting to smack him for his absolute failure in both matters of the head and the heart. But their love was beautiful, passionate, and true until the very end, even though the princess later discovered the full extent to which the man she loved had deceived her. Egregiously evil, her enemy in every way, yet the dearest in her heart even until their dying breaths. I will not elaborate further for fear of spoiling such a heartwrenchingly tender story for someone else.

Also, I finished Chapter 7: Training of Kindest Cruelty last month. I’m making progress on Chapter 8, which will be out before the end of the month. :)

DBSK/JYJ Paradise

So I’m still waiting on the Junsu crown necklace to come in the mail, but I’ve already received my Mirotic Version A album that I won from the DBSKnights 2nd Anniversary Giveaway Contest, my JYJ Billboard Release of the Week magazine, and my JYJ “The Beginning” Special Edition album and poster. Unfortunately, the JYJ t-shirt ended up having a centimeter-diameter hole in the back. I’m pretty angry. :/

Now my side of the dorm room is paradise. :) I wish I had a high-quality camera to take a picture…but I’ll summarize in words instead. On the bulletin board at my desk I have 3 8×8 inch photo cards of Jaejoong, Yoochun, and Junsu, followed by the magazine which I ingeniously perched on the ledge and pinned to the wall using a binder clip and pin without damaging the paper. On the shelf above my desk are my upright JYJ “The Beginning” and DBSK “Mirotic Version A” albums in their full glory. On the wall to the right of my desk is the JYJ “The Beginning” poster.  Below that is a row of four more 8×8 photo cards, one of each member and one of the group. On the bulletin board behind my bed, starting from the left, is my Islands in the Sun calendar followed by my ten Super Junior autographs. Under the autographs are a picture of Yesung and a picture of DBSK from the Mirotic Version C album photoshoot. To the right of that is my 3×3 mosaic of the remaining 9 8×8 photo cards from the special edition. Not to mention DBSK is my laptop wallpaper and Jaejoong in the snow (from the JYJ showcase booklet) is my phone background.

Now my loves and inspirations are plastered everywhere. Everything is arranged perfectly with regards to location and filling up space, so now I feel as if this is a sort of fate. This is my consolation to make up for not being able to attend the JYJ showcase in NYC this Friday.

Hmm…other stuff to blog about…well, it seems incorrigible that I fail at chemistry even after studying 12+ hours for an exam. However, after studying less than 5 hours for honors microeconomics, I can score a hundred on my midterm. O_O Looks like I’m cut out to be a businesswoman after all. ;)

Also, I’ve updated my novella Kindest Cruelty on FictionPress with Chapter 6: Escape. Check it out!

Love and Frustration

The prelude: I am the queen of procrastination, I stink at chemistry, I fail at every aspect of college in general, I am constantly sleep-deprived, and I want to shove SM Entertainment down to burning pits of fire.

That said…on October 4th I stayed up 5.5 hours, refreshing distributor websites every few seconds, to pre-order one of the extremely limited 99,999 luxury package with JYJ’s “The Beginning” limited edition CD. $70 down the drain…or rather, $70 flowing to high heavens, to make my darlings rich, without any regrets on my behalf. :) However, the initial claim was that the luxury package contained 3 t-shirts and 3 posters…then it became 1 t-shirt and 1 poster after I pre-ordered. Not to mention that due to dastardly SM’s injunction filed against JYJ, release date was pushed back to October 25th. The album is my only comfort because it is almost entirely impossible for me to go to the JYJ Showcase in New York City on November 12th. Rawr parental dissent. I’m an adult already, and I have the money for it, and it’s a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, but…a no is a no. :[

Finally, it’s been announced that I’m one of the five winners of the DBSKnights 2nd Anniversary Giveaway Contest. Wanna read my essay-length responses to the questions? LOL go ahead. Feel free to knock yourself out with a paragraph I wrote at Koreaboo as well.

In my heart I have no doubt of my unconditional love for the Dong Bang boys.

1. How did you become a TVXQ fan? Why do you love them?

Before DBSK, I had never felt my heart stir so fiercely with emotion and pound against my ribcage as if about to burst from the inexhaustible love I felt. I had absolutely no idea that when I went camping at the Thousand Islands in June 2009, my entire life would transform into something far more profound and blissful. During dinner the second night, I reunited with an old friend and also met four other Asian girls, all of whom lived in New York and camped at the Thousand Islands annually. We played silly volleyball games on a grassy hill near the lakes, and when we sat down to rest, we talked about boys, of course! The only girl who was older than me was the most fangirly of all; she was fanning herself frantically with her hands as we discussed the Korean dramas My Girl and Goong. Then she and my friend became absolutely engrossed in their private discussion about DBSK, a Korean boy band they were madly in love with. Apparently they both liked U-Know the most and either put Hero second or gave him no place in their hearts at all. They kept commenting on how long his hair was, how feminine he seemed…and that ought to have been a red flag for me, but I was determined to confirm it. The moment I arrived home, I resolved to crack the puzzle of DBSK once and for all. I clicked on the first result for DBSK that came up on YouTube and was so captivated by the boys within less than a minute that I was actually shivering in the summer heat. It was love at first sight with Jaejoong, who seemed so ethereal and absolutely glowed in the spotlight of the 2007 Soul Power performance of “Love in the Ice.” His vocal prowess melted me into my socks. His stunning eyes, called beautiful by women of all ages and I daresay men as well, pierce the very soul. He has no equal. Even in the realm of spicy pepper tolerance (as in eating the spiciest pepper in the world with a smile) he is unmatched.

After I finished watching the Tokyo Summit performance of Love in the Ice, I sat in stunned silence for a while and pondered deeply. I was extremely reluctant to invest my heart into a boy band again, after very briefly being intrigued and then disappointed by the popular boy group concept in Taiwan. But then a probing question struck me: had I EVER heard such heartwrenching, tender, and extraordinarily synchronized vocals before? Nope. Did I want to drool over Jaejoong and pay attention to the other boys more? Heck yeah. And so I began my mission to discover everything delightful that DBSK had to offer: I listened deeply to every DBSK song, watched every live performance I could find, laughed in every Banjun and Vacation drama, treated myself to the eye candy on every page of their photobooks, and enjoyed their interviews and guest appearances on every show within my reach. Slowly I fell in love with each of the boys; my first love blinded me to the other boy, whom I love just as much Jaejoong. He is Junsu, the dolphin, the cutie, the romantic, the dearest crybaby. His voice sweeps me up to high heaven. His smile is the same as a baby’s. And as for his duckbutt combined with dancing…no more words are necessary unless I want to get a nosebleed from Intoxication. The first song that brought me to tears was his “Rainy Night.” The song that made me a sobbing mess for a good half hour exactly a year later was also his bittersweet composition, “W.”

I didn’t realize the extent of my love for the other three boys until I saw the tender relationship they forged with the little blind girl Ye-Eun on SBS Chocolate. At that moment it struck me like a lightning bolt how truly good, humble, and pure of heart all five of them are. They are a true family: Yunho, the handsome prince and fluid dancer who’s got every girl in checkmate, the compassionate and strong leader, always protects the members like a father. Jaejoong, the most beautiful man in the world, the lead vocal with a voice as pure as water, takes care of the members through his tranquil love and cooks for them like a mother. Junsu, the creative and athletic boy with a golden voice and the cutest personality, the charmer who makes women faint from his sexy solos, is adorable beyond compare like a sweet daughter. Yoochun, the sensitive soul and suave lady-killer, the dedicated composer and deepest vocal, is the mature yet carefree and hilarious older son. And finally Changmin, the genius maknae with the big voice and killer Mirotic scream, the tallest and the food lover with the biggest appetite, is the baby whom all the other members dote on. For Yoochun and Yunho, I was incredibly honored to have the opportunity to build their TFL-approved fanlistings, which are my tributes to them: yoochun and yunho.

Thus began my blooming unrequited love with quite possibly the five most angelic beings who have ever graced this earth with song and dance. Rising Gods of the East. How majestic, epic, awe-inspiring is that name alone? Since late 2003, this group of five superbly talented and attractive males has brought the female population of Asia and now the entire world to its knees. When I am overwhelmed by the ruthless storm that is my extremely busy life, I sometimes feel a twinge of sorrow at not being dedicated enough to think about DBSK as often as I want. But I dare venture to say that in the end, I always crawl back on hands and knees to the boys (officially men, but sometimes as sweet as newborn babies) who had bewitched me a year and a half ago and then stolen my heart with no intention of ever returning it. I finally understand that although I indeed have a myriad of reasons for falling so deeply in love with these five boys, my love does not have to be justified. Love opposes all logic and reasoning: at first I couldn’t understand a word that came out of their mouths, nor could I ever hope to see them live since we are separated by oceans, nor could I ever dream of receiving a beautiful smile from any of them. But as the boys inspired me and taught me valuable lessons about our roles in this world, I began to realize that all I ever wanted was to simply love them.

In a way, I began loving them too late; just one month after I discovered DBSK, I read about the lawsuit filed by Jaejoong, Yoochun, and Junsu against SM Entertainment with a broken heart. The first DBSK philosophy I ever abided by, 5-1=0, was shattered. But by now I have learned that no matter what, isn’t 3+2=5 still true? As long as they are happy and healthy and continue to touch our hearts with their music, shouldn’t we be content, and not demand any more from them? It’s true that I still feel a quiet loneliness sweeping across my heart, a melancholy longing for the boys to reunite and embrace each other in group hugs once more. Sometimes, during my more sensitive moods, I am acutely aware of the gaps on the JYJ and HoMin stages, where five beautiful voices are replaced by three or two, and dance formations previously shared by the five of them are replaced by nameless backup dancers. It is at these moments when the waterfalls erupt from my eyes and I pray to once again be able to see the boys stand together on stage, laugh heartily, and sing their hearts out.

I know that some fans hold expectations of perfection from the boys because they are highly regarded as multilingual, multi-talented idols whom ordinary people look up to. The mistakes they made in the past, the legal complications that have now ensnared them, the agonizing long waits for their new releases, and the emergence of appealing new artists were enough for some Cassies to leave. But true Cassies, of whom I am only one of millions, still gaze up at the dark night sky and cry with joy to see our loves still etched in the heavens. It’s touching, really, the beautiful concept that we, Cassiopeia, are the stars that shine in the dark night sky that is DBSK. One cannot exist without the other. And this is the way I will always be, because I will forever support DBSK’s second philosophy, Always Keep the Faith. In “W,” JaeChunSu express not only the deep extent of their longing for HoMin, but also heartwrenchingly reveal how much Cassiopeia means to them. They tell us to keep supporting and waiting for them because they will not fail us. This is not an empty promise. Even if DBSK is currently on hiatus and the members are split, I am certain that they can fulfill their individual dreams and reunite in the future. Time will be our guardian. And I will love them eternally because they have given me so much that is beyond the power of words to describe, yet I have never been able to convey that gratitude and appreciation in person. I will continue wishing and praying and dreaming for the five of them together. But for now, I will devote myself to JYJ and HoMin and cheer on for my boys, hoping that they can still smile and be happy each day.

Because of my boys, my heart has become a passionate volcano, one that will never freeze over because of the gifts of the heart, mind, and soul they have given me. To accept the realization that three of my favorite boys will be performing less than five hours away (New York, November 12th) without me being able to see them is heartbreaking. Just once, once, I want to see them in the flesh. Even if I am invisible, even if they never so much as glance in my direction, I want to proudly stand among the sea of Cassies and give them a red ocean. Of course, as I realize that the boys’ popularity is soaring across the globe, a tiny twinge of jealousy worms its way into my heart. But even as thousands of more fans endear themselves to DBSK each day, I cannot help but cast aside all of my selfishness and instead feel immensely proud of the boys. I know that their unparalleled success and fame are the rewards for their years of bitter toil, which no one but superstars with restricted freedom ever have to experience. The boys often live weeks at a time without an hour of free time or privacy to themselves; they must always be on high alert whenever the cameras roll around and control their voices perfectly when holding microphones; they cannot avoid the high decibel shrilly screams of thousands of fans and the hundreds of groping hands that await them at every public location they visit.

My heart bleeds, and swells with pride, whenever I think of my boys. I really should chide myself for being so weak-hearted, because any song by them can reduce me to a glistening puddle of tears. Although I fully indulge in bliss when listening to the magic of their voices, I also subject myself to the bittersweet heartbreak that mirrors their own inner sorrow. I cannot say whether this one-sided relationship between a mere fan and these almost inhumanly magnificent musicians is healthy or not. But without a doubt they are beyond extraordinary. My heart refuses to compare them to anyone else because DBSK is truly unparalleled in this world. They have made my year and a half BEAUTIFUL.

2. How has DBSKnights contributed to your fandom?

I discovered DBSKnights last December after following a link on DBSKnightSub’s YouTube channel. The blog was beautiful yet simple and elegant, and within five minutes I knew for certain that this was one website I would definitely follow every day. It was as natural for me as reading the newspaper in the morning. On DBSKnights, I can rest assured that all the hot news of our boys are shared with us in a timely manner. High quality scans, HD videos, fancams, fan art, and fan accounts are bonuses that I always look forward to. What I appreciate the most are the painstakingly translated articles and compiled photo collections, as well as the wonderful subbed uploads of DVDs that I otherwise wouldn’t be able to understand, such as the 3rd BigEast Fanclub Event, 3hree Voices, and Heaven’s Postman. DBSKnight’s beautiful goal to spread the Dong Bang love, the dedicated staff members, and the community of supportive Cassies who frequent the blog really touch me and have brought tears to my eyes on more than one occasion. And according to my most visited website thumbnails on my Google Chrome browser, is my #2 most visited website. :)

3. Did you ever spend a sleepless night with DBSK? How?

I stay up until 2 or 3AM at least twice a week drooling and crying bucketfuls over the boys. And I never regret it, even if I must wake up at 6:30 the next morning, haha. I have spent two truly sleepless DBSK nights in my life, all the way until wispy streaks of dawn’s blush crept onto the horizon. My first sleepless night with DBSK was spent watching the Bonjour Paris DVD in one sitting two summers ago. I giggled all night long and was entirely unable to sleep. Ready for my super long one-sentence summary of everything that made me laugh in Bonjour Paris? Here we go: Junsu’s butt hurts, the boys sing a capella, Jaejoong gets attacked by tree branches, Yunho yells “everybody put your hands up” and “Korea fighting” to whole crowds of people, Jaejoong’s mission to get 5 people to wave back to him on boats and buses, Junsu drunk on sugary beverages, Yunho slapping horse’s butt on merry-go-round, Yoochun pretending he’s Jamaican, Yoochun’s dog showered, bowing pharaohs, Junsu’s gibberish, little girl scared of Yoochun in playground, Junsu food snatching, Jaejoong’s UFO trick, Micky & Minnie, Jaejoong’s diagonal run, Junsu and Yunho fly kicking and handstands, naming myths of fountain, Yunho’s prada wears the devil, Yunho still thinks Paris is a country at the end of the trip, Paris to Yunho = party, Paris to Junsu = mosquito, Changmin being the only sane person, but narcissistic enough to check his reflection in the glass display of a movie poster. Hahaha!

Seven months ago, I also spent a sleepless night writing a poem about DBSK for a freestyle poetry assignment in my literature class. Although I wrote it with my biases Jaejoong and Junsu in mind, the poem expresses my feelings for all five members in the most honest light possible. Two of the lines allude to DBSK lyrics. I hope that anyone who reads my poem can understand the unconditional love I have for the Dong Bang boys and feel the same way. Thank you for reading my submission, and enjoy! :)

We are a world apart.

You glow in the spotlight, capturing hearts with every tender smile.

Always you are surrounded by the red ocean of your admirers.

I weave through fifty thousand fans to reach the stage and touch your fingertips.

Only your trembling hands betray your burden of unparalleled fame.

My heart plays fireworks every precious moment I am in your presence.

Unfathomable, your eyes are my sunrise.

Your voice is gentle magic, melting hearts of steel bit by bit.

Your charisma is the glittering sun breaking through stormy clouds.

Your back view resembles falling white snow, lonelier than the moonlight.

You are more than the air I breathe.

You are mine, a song I will never finish singing.


To put it simply and sweetly, I have been an exceptionally devoted Cassie for years, and I want nothing more than to support the Dong Bang boys in whichever paths they choose. I have faith in them that they will reunite in the bright future, no matter how distant, and take comfort in each other by sharing laughter and happiness. I felt a kindred affection for the boys the instant I saw them for the first time; it was during their extraordinary 2007 Tokyo Summit performance of Love in the Ice that I felt myself being magnetically drawn to the boys beyond anything I had ever felt before. Their heartwrenching, tender, and breathtakingly synchronized vocals left me shivering in the intense summer heat. My love for them grew steadily as I committed myself to the most humble and pure of heart boys in the world. The Dong Bang boys’ passionate singing, fluid dancing, poignant acting, and exquisite compositions completely endeared them to my heart, mind, and soul. They are my inspiration, my bliss, my miracle, my loves. Before DBSK, I had never felt my heart stir so fiercely with emotion and pound against my ribcage as if about to burst from the inexhaustible love I felt. Every day I will continue to cheer on and pray for my boys, whether as Dong Bang Shin Ki or as JYJ and HoMin, and the stars of Cassiopeia etched in the heavens will glow as an eternal testament of my devotion to them. <3

Shortest Post Ever?

Hi, I’m back. Sorta. College is driving me nuts. :P

I could complain and rant and ramble about how much I fail, but it all boils down to a few words…

I LOVE DBSK. ♥ ♥ ♥


Whoever opposes them should burn. xD

More Yesung Love Part 2
Some other random facts about Yesung I either forgot to mention yesterday or just discovered ;)This boy is sooo lovable. ♥

- tends to initiate the bobos and hugs (Eunhyuk, Ryeowook, Kangin)
- sends the most serious yet tender flying kiss to fans
- has the weirdest, most contagious laugh EVER which lasts quite a while and gets progressively more high pitched
- master of not tasting anything: amazing ability to remain expressionless when eating spicy peppers (3 hottest in the world!) and even loads of wasabi
- hot hot hot pelvic thrusts!
- most adorable winks!
- very gorgeous body (mmm eyes, nose, lips, arms, neck, chest, and Jeju Island shaped birthmark on his lower abs)
- acting as Street Fighter (1000 Songs Challenge) and embarrassing the other members (Leeteuk, Siwon, Kyuhyun, Donghae) with his serious dorkiness
- he’s a narcissist who always checks himself in the mirror and loves self-photography, yet is very particular when giving instructions to men who pose cutely when photographing themselves
- was born to be a pro face-painting artist (poor Eunhyuk!)
- has a habit of peeling his shirt over at least his stomach when he gets hot
- is a super cute geek when wearing framed specs
- has a very colorful and organized room
- is the master of cute poses
- used to have a puppy, and when Joanne acts as his puppy on Star Golden Bell, he asks her where she went to pee LOL
- was born in the year of the dog (zodiac)…I love dogs! Monkey (me, not Eunhyuk) + dog (Jongwoon) = love! Actually, turtle + turtle = love. We’re both turtle lovers. :P
- enjoys taking off Eunhyuk’s socks so that his smelly feet can help the MC clear his sinuses
- fails at tongue twisters universally, not just Chinese ones but Korean ones too
- on EHB, he feels sleepy after inhaling laughing gas while the other members are rolling on the floor laughing, sweating, producing tears, and getting runny noses. FAIL!
- on a Cantonese interview that involved drawing ideal girls, Yesung drew the left half of his ideal girl’s face and then totally ignored the question; with a totally serious expression on his face, he went on to talk about Dragonball, Sun Wukong, and Batman. When asked what he would say when confessing to his ideal girl, Yesung said he would tell her that he wanted to learn martial arts from Sun Wukong and be Robin to Batman.
- when it was announced that he won the ‘best idol image’ award, he was caught drinking water…totally unprepared!
- wore red sneakers that totally stood out on Shin Jeonghwan PD’s Variety World
- looks like an elementary school kid when wearing yellow punishment hat
- the master at movie charades

Also, Yesung and I are similar on so many more levels.

9. We have the same crazy loud laugh that can’t be suppressed no matter how hard we try.
10. When completely overcome with laughter, we tend to slap the arm of the friend who made the joke. None too lightly.
11. Last night I dreamed of having my own extremely large and rare turtle that liked to blink at me with its beautiful golden eyes.

Let’s get married, Yesung.

More Yesung Love
I want to bobo this man like no other. In fact, he’d better be the first boy I ever bobo, mwahaha.

Yesung, oh Jongwoon…the words that describe you all contradict each other. You’re eccentric, dorky, lame, creepy, princely, adorable, weird, hot, awkward, and sexy all at the same time. I’m not surprised that I didn’t have a good first impression of you…I didn’t want to warm up to Super Junior when I was such a devoted Cassie in mid-2009, and I simply didn’t like your entrance or your bright orange hair in the lip-synced It’s You performance at KBS Open Concert. Very, very slowly you thawed my reluctantly frozen heart towards you. The first time I laughed at you was when the other members were exposing your nighttime-creeping and philtrum-touching secrets and you were stubbornly in denial. The second time I laughed (and consciously paid attention to you) was when you bravely ate three of the world’s spiciest peppers and showed little reaction except for a cute hiccup. The third time was when you announced happily on Sukira that you were wearing red underwear that day.

You became my fourth favorite, a too-low spot that you did not deserve. For months I was caught up in my hectic final year of high school and I completely forgot about Super Junior. Finally, in late May, I decided on a whim to rewatch a princekyu video featuring (obviously) my then favorite Kyuhyun. Towards the end I saw unfamiliar footage of Kyuhyun with an evil smirk, leaning against a wall in a mysteriously dark setting illuminated by a sweeping light. I was thoroughly confused (and excited) and quickly found out that it was Bonamana, the hit song of the 4th Super Junior album of the same name. My jaws dropped to the floor when I witnessed Yesung’s subtle ultra-hot transformation and the beautiful lines he sang. By the time I listened to Your Eyes, my ‘only Kyu’ mindset was wavering. Somehow, instead of being pleased that so many other fangirls loved Kyuhyun’s voice and wished that he had a solo song instead of the duet, I felt offended. Why so little appreciation for Yesung? Why was he so insignificant in their eyes, so underrated in the sea of Kyuhyun drool? I didn’t mind Kyuhyun getting showered with praise, but the fans’ demand for Kyu to have his own song, which I attributed to their opinion that Kyuhyun far exceeded Yesung, tore my heart to shreds.

By then, Yesung had long since gained second place in my heart. Consciously I still only thought of Kyu. But now I look back at my dream diary (I’ve recorded all my dreams since 2006, whether in journals or on Google Docs), and it seems that unconsciously, Yesung had crept into my dreams by June 26th. Still I remained in the dark about this extraordinary boy. When the No Other MV came out, I found myself drawn to Yesung’s balloons-and-kids scenes far more than Kyuhyun’s artsy heart collage scenes. During the rotating view of Yesung and the girl surrounded by a myriad of balloons, I held my breath. When I saw the silver ring held out in his fingers and the gorgeous smile on his face, I completely fainted over Yesung.

I was no longer blind to this boy’s charms, but I was still stubborn. Again and again I berated myself for being so fickle. Hadn’t Jaejoong once captured my attention in Love in the Ice the same way Kyuhyun did in Super Girl? And then two months later I was crazy over Junsu, whom I couldn’t even identify for at least a week after being smitten with Jae. My swooning over Yesung progressed much later, true, but I was afraid to begin another drooling rampage. I had enough boys to admire and didn’t want to attach myself so deeply again. Well, that was a pretty hopeless resistance to the irresistible temptation that is Yesung. I began to fall in love with him after I watched his complete fail on Shin Jeonghwan PD’s Variety World as well as his hilariously cute reaction to a fan’s question about reading YeWook fanfics.

Many months before, I had watched some Exploring the Human Body episodes, but not until recently did I notice the chains of total failures that Yesung achieved in EHB. His regressing reaching and jumping records, being demo man, enduring spicy peppers, being tickled and his expression when being fed a ball of salt, failure at catching arrows, octopus dance, inability to cry for his mom because he was thinking of black bean noodles…all sent me into fits of laughter. I laughed my head off in every video that featured Yesung fail, including his poor attempt at the grape Chinese tongue twister.

It really didn’t help that I also got addicted to Yesung’s artistic, husky baritone vocals in It Has to Be You and beautiful songs like Polaris, I Do, and Things I Can’t Do For You that he covered on Miracle For You. I literally couldn’t get enough. Every breath he took seemed to last an agonizing eternity because he paused his singing. Slowly, I revisited past songs like It’s You and Why I Like You, completely casting aside my previous ignorance and soaking myself in the ocean of his voice. I further indulged in his solo Resignation, in which he invested so much emotion that I ended up trembling from head to toe.

Then a friend sent me a link to Yesung singing The Trap of the North Gate in the studio. I was shivering when he sang the terrifyingly soft beginning, drooling when the camera zoomed in on his beautiful neck, astounded breathless as the song intensified along with Yesung’s ascending vocals, and finally smiled when he professionally put on his beanie and thumped his throat a little after he finished singing. I was definitely in love. Although I couldn’t find much footage of Hong Gil Dong, and could only witness him singing The Trap of the North Gate in the musical and crying during the curtain calls, I knew beyond a doubt that this boy has some serious talent in musicals. I was also completely in love. (Edit: wait, I already said that xD)

So the past three days I embarked on a Super Junior (Yesung especially) photo-collecting rampage. By now I’ve amassed a gallery of 600+ of the funniest/hottest photos, 241 of them solely Yesung and about another 200 of Yesung with the members and his family. I especially doted on pictures of baby Yesung (which I dreamed about having the honor of viewing on the night before my 18th birthday, interestingly enough) and the pictures he uploaded of his three beloved turtles. I thought I was a little obsessed, but was nevertheless certain that I was a cloud in love with the brightest star Yesung.

Finally, just a few minutes ago, that same friend who introduced me to Yesung’s musical prowess also mentioned, uh, his…yadong collection/habit/hobby? WHAT my darling is not as innocent as he seems! But who can blame him…he’s a man nearing 26 yet still single, and it must be difficult for him to cope, hence his turtle companions. Not to mention that he can seduce me with just his eyes, so I can’t consider myself entirely not perverted either. Yesung is just oozing sensuality and passion, so I suppose he has to expel it somehow. Even younger boys like Eunhyuk, Yunho, and Changmin have succumbed to the same guilty pleasure. ;)

And now for a really random list of other reasons why I love him:

- he loves the color red, whether red underwear, strawberries (yum), red glasses, or red flower and parasol in SSIII!
- looks great with kids and has that glow in his eyes when he’s playing with them…has the potential to be a superb father
- was the most adorable baby himself; he was just the same 20+ years ago with that big head, beautiful eyes, tiny eyes, perfect teeth, and that beaming smile that melts my heart
- is extremely filial, and cries when thinking about his parents whom he can’t visit often
- is the best hyung; he always hugs his dongsaengs in a close embrance whenever they’re crying, sad, overwhelmed, or all three
- never got any plastic surgery; still has single eyelids ♥
- his philtrum fetish annoys the other members but also endears him to them…what I wouldn’t give to be touched there by those adorable little hands :P
- likes to act out being killed (stabbed or shot), and is darn good at it
- famous octopus dance that is so ridiculously hilarious
- infamous evil high-five trick in which he pulls away his hand at the last minute
- amazing lung capacity not just in singing, but also in table soccer (scored 3 goals!)
- never dated before, has had the same ideal girl for years (Moon Geun Young…he has good taste!)
- funny crack skit dances (especially Sailor Moon)
- got turtles when jealous of Heenim’s cats (he has eccentric but wonderful taste), and loved his first turtle Dangkoma so dearly that he got him/her two dongsaengs for company
- super speed wave (Love Pursuer)
- makes the use of guyliner super sexy
- goes well in any couple pairing: YeWook, YeKyu, KangYe, YeChul, YeHae, YeWon, YeHyuk, YeHo (Yunho!!)
- really knows how to kill fangirls with his piercing stare (*is dead*)
- so cute in cloud, turtle, Indian chief, broccoli costumes!
- excellent in musicals; he sings The Trap of the North Gate like a warrior god!
- his and Eunhyuk’s short rendition of Kiss Me Darling lulled me to sleep on two nights
- his signature, even without the childish cloud, is so elegant; the heart he drew completely sealed my love ♥

It has to be you, Yesung. (I also got a Twitter just to follow him, haha. I am seriously crazy.)

Yesung, My Singer-Soulmate

I’m in love. Again. Yes, yes, I know…I always fall in love with the same boys over and over again: Junsu, Jaejoong, Yesung, and Kyuhyun in no particular order.

But very recently I just realized how similar Yesung and I are. It’s kinda creepy.

1. Yesung’s favorite color is red. So is mine.

2. Yesung is known for having the biggest head and smallest hands in SJ. I have a big head and tiny hands too.

3. He has somewhat small eyes and a big nose. I have small eyes and a big nose too. :P

4. He loves turtles and gets jealous of other people’s pets. I love turtles (I even made a clay turtle sculpture and painted it green in seventh grade, and it’s still in my room). I always get jealous of other people who are lucky enough to have pets.

5. Yesung’s memory of thinking he was going to die: elementary school, being underwater. I am scared of being underwater and scared to death of drowning.

6. He’s a big fail at everything except singing. He even fails at dancing. Not that I can sing well, but I’m a huge fail too. And can’t dance to save my life.

7. He has a philtrum fetish. I have a hand fetish and by now I think I have a philtrum fetish too.

8. We were both born in August. ♥

Now, a little something to think about as for Jaejoong and Kyuhyun’s similarities and Junsu and Yesung’s similarities. :P

Jaejoong and Kyuhyun are both known to be superb, consistent vocalists. Their voices are as clear as water, as smooth as chocolate. They’re both the same height, 180 cm. They’re always extremely physically attractive. Jaejoong and Kyuhyun give off an aura of perfection. I fell for them at first sight. Also, they’re both good at holding their liquor. ;)

Junsu and Yesung both have raspy, husky voices. Very unique and I can’t get enough of either of their voices. They’re both 178 cm tall. They both have slightly small eyes, big noses, and are physically drop-dead gorgeous most of the time, but not always. Junsu and Yesung are huge dorks. ;)  I fell for them much later, but have grown to love them more than Jae and Kyu. ♥ Also, both of them love soccer, can’t hold their drink, and sing as leads in musicals! Love love love!

Wow, somehow I transferred my drool into a productive analysis of my boys. And it took me only ten minutes. Time to pat myself on the back and then drool some more.

Did I ever mention how hopeless I am? It’s all the fault of his beautiful signature and that heart Yesung drew for me (unknowingly), I swear. I think I shared a few germs with Jongwoon thanks to the paper Jenny sent me. I am on cloud nine. :P

The Wonders of 18

So, lazy me has finally decided to make a decent blog post after turning 18 on August 1st!

I think I should make a list of 18 things that’s been happening to me and what I care about. :)

1. My 18th birthday was also the day of the first full-length K.R.Y. concert, which took place in Tokyo in front of 10,000 Japanese E.L.F.s and was a HUGE success! Whoo!

2. I got Super Junior’s autographs mailed to me from my awesome friend Jenny last week! I’m still jealous that she got to meet all ten boys rehearsing inside SM for SSIII on some day she forgot on the week of July 4th-11th. She got to see them all shirtless (except for Shindong), and my Kyuhyun has abs, and she hugged them all shirtless and sweaty. She gave them a stack of blank papers to sign (LOL), then picked those up at their DORMS which she got to tour. She got to meet their pets too! Heechul’s cats, Yesung’s turtles, and I think Eunhyuk’s doggy too. JEALOUS!

3. Here’s the order in which the boys signed:


4. My descriptions/comments on the autographs:

Shindong’s signature has a crown, good ‘Super Jr.’ handwriting
Yesung’s is recognizable to me, especially the ‘Y’ and ‘g’ that balance each other out; there’s a HEART! ♥
Heechul’s looks like a Christmas tree (supposed to be his ‘Chinese signature’); has two stars
Donghae’s begins with a big lowercase d; hangul name below
Kyuhyun’s is a total unrecognizable mess that begins with a huge ‘C’
Siwon’s is perfect for a role model executive
Ryeowook’s takes two lines’ pretty handwriting of ‘Super Junior’; has smilie face
Sungmin’s begins with a huge curly ‘O’; has star at top; smilie face
Eunhyuk’s is really intricate…or really messy…don’t know difference; pretty good handwriting of ‘Super Junior’
Leeteuk’s is really dark and thick LOL

5. My awesome hostess Buruma has renewed my domain,, for the third time! ♥

6. I got approved for the Lucifer (SHINee album) fanlisting!

7. I finished Chapter 5 of my Yelü Xie story, which I gave a lovely title of Kindest Cruelty and uploaded to FictionPress! Please read and review!

8. My awesome friend Em drew me a warrior girl who kinda represents me and made me a wallpaper out of it! ♥

9. Junsu baby has turned me into a pervert in Intoxication. This song should be R-rated. I couldn’t stop drooling.

10. I think my dilemma of ‘favorite/ideal member’ in DBSK has still never reached a conclusion. If I could only pick one member to meet in real life, I’d probably be dead before I could finally choose between Junsu and Jaejoong. It was love at first sight with JJ, but in about two more months I fell in love with the dolphin too. I think my personality matches Junsu’s more, so technically he would be more ideal as a husband for me (haha yeah right, not even in my dreams). However, domestic life with Jaejoong might be total bliss because of his EXQUISITE cooking skills. I only wish my feet had an aura to them…I think my hands are acceptable enough for Jaejoong though. And I think I’m smart enough for Junsu’s requirements. Haha, but I’m still a far cry from either of their ideal types. :P

11. Similarly, I am facing the same problem between two members in Super Junior. I was attracted to Kyuhyun at first sight. My second and third favorites eventually became Donghae and Siwon, respectively. It’s kind of funny how two of my friends (Jenny and my twin) have each claimed them. When they were my favorites, neither of my friends knew of them. Sometime after that, Yesung became my fourth favorite. After seeing the No Other MV and completely falling in love with his scenes with the balloons and cute children and silver ring tied to the strings, I decided Yesung was my second favorite. Then, when I saw that he had discreetly drawn a heart (the ONLY heart, mind) beside his hangul name on my autograph paper, I honestly thought I was in love with him. Seeing his ultimate fail on variety shows and his hilarious honesty on radio shows endeared him to me even more. Before I knew it, he was battling out Kyuhyun for the top spot. I think that in his own way, he’s even surpassed Kyu. Not to mention his PHILTRUM fetish! So cute. And he has small hand’s, like a girls. Well then, we’re hand twins! ♥ But then I think back on everything Kyuhyun’s suffered, not just as maknae, but also his near-death accident and slow recovery. He deserves all his success and popularity. As with my DBSK dilemma, I can’t choose between Kyu and Jongwoon to meet in real life. However, I think Yesung’s personality matches mine more, and I’d be more than happy to marry him so that he won’t be lonely with only a turtles for company. LOL. And I match Yesung’s description of his ideal type more than Kyuhyun’s. If only I could make my eyes sparkle…but I have a warm enough heart, methinks.

12. I dreamed about Yesung and then Jaejoong last night. I woke up this morning at 7:20 and felt refreshed for the first time in months after sleeping for just 7 hours. My dream with Yesung consisted of me writing happy birthday on his FB wall (LOL what?), since his birthday is August 24th. He replied, thanking me but also expression confusion with smilies over what I meant on one line, which had like a time reference (say 3:40) that seemed like something I would comment on a YouTube video. So then I composed a really long reply in explanation, trying to use simpler English, but couldn’t finish it because I was staying up way too late in my room with my laptop, and apparently my parents had woken up and were going to yell at me. However, I checked the time and totally forgot the different time zones, and didn’t want to post something outdated since I was wishing him happy birthday again (and asked him to smile eternally?) or something cheesy like that on his wall. Hours later, I awoke with tears in my eyes because of Jaejoong. Since I’ll probably never get the chance to do so in real life, I got to at least attend a DBSK concert at Tokyo Dome in my dreams. Except the ocean was sapphire blue, not red…too much SJ lately. I also had direct eye contact with Jaejoong during this play session when lucky chosen fans got to be in this contest/game. First, Jaejoong said anyone wearing “la sangre” could come up on stage. Last night during Spanish class I was looking up “blood” in the textbook glossary to answer the question of what I was hypothetically afraid of. Apparently in my dream it was an epithet for “red.” I was wearing a really ugly red sweater to the concert, haha. I stood up to go on stage, but then he said something about “people in the second section.” I wasn’t sure if I was or not (I was toward the front, but definitely not in the first ten rows). It was really crowded in my row, and apparently I attended with at least four other family members/friends, and my mom/aunt/older-female-figure was trying to persuade me to go up anyway. I was frozen, still unsure. Suddenly Jaejoong had eye contact with me and beckoned me onstage. He looked like a true angel (like he always does). I of course obeyed. T_T

13. I won the Sapphire Pearls 4th giveaway, Bonamana Version B with Siwon photocard, by asking a very difficult question about the meaning/story behind ‘mambo’ in relation to Super Junior! Yay! But I haven’t gotten any reply after sending three e-mails. I wish it’d just arrive already…

14. I am rocking at Spanish! But I don’t know what to do for the oral presentation next Monday. And I really wish the homework assignment would be up already.

15. I watched all of La Corda D’oro, an anime about a girl with a magic violin at an academy specializing in classical music. It inspired me to practice more. Just a little. Too many unrealistically kind bishounen in that anime. Slow-witted main girl too.

16. 3HREE VOICES, the JYJ vacation DVDs, were released a while ago and much of it has been subbed already! I watched several segments of Junsu’s and Jaejoong’s vacations. Junsu’s designated location is Sydney, Australia (he’s following my footsteps!), Jaejoong’s is Whitehorse, Canada (what a beautiful name fit for a beautiful visitor!), and Yoochun’s is Seoul (LOL, how foreign. But since they’re Japanese DVDs, Seoul works, I guess). I can’t wait to see Jae fail at skiing.

17. I got to know a little bit about my future roommate, who I’ll be living with in a couple weeks. Wow, summer’s flown by. :(

18. I’m still trying to get used to being 18. I mean, before, I always wanted to be older. I was so eager to turn 13, 16, and 17, especially. Now that I’m an adult, I’m still wrestling with the fact that I still act, look, and think like a child. I love stuffed animals, fairy tales, everything childish. It’s hard to accept how grown-up my peers seem, and how people younger than me are becoming stars in the entertainment industry. The only thing that makes me feel 18 is how much of a perv I’ve become thanks to my darlings and idols whom I always thought were the epitome of innocence…*cough*Junsu*cough* But I don’t mind. I’ve been drooling bucketfuls over my ideal guys since who knows when. I’d like to keep that tradition going even when the DBSK and SJ boys and I are losing our teeth. I am a Cassiopeia and E.L.F. for life. Eventually I might even consider myself part of SHINee World, as a Shawol. But for now, I am a Cassie before anything else.


Indeed I wonder, how on earth do I transition from the most intense Super Junior drooling period to SHINee love? I am so excited for that beautiful piece of paper coming in the mail…touched by the fingertips of ten of my idols. :D I’m not going to get too excited yet, because I will blog about this surprise like crazy when the time comes. So this will be a short entry…or so I planned.

I’ve been resisting SHINee for many, many months. Nine, ten? At least twice as long as my Super Junior resistance. Partially it’s because sometimes kpop and entertainment companies *cough*SM*cough* grate on my nerves. Partially it’s because I’m still in that terribly biased “DBSK is unparalleled in this world” mentality. And of course, it’s partially because I didn’t like any of the most popular SHINee songs: Replay, Love Like Oxygen, and Ring Ding Dong. Not to mention I didn’t bother to research the five boys enough to know their ages. I didn’t want to gawk and squeal over them only to find out they’re all younger than me, thus making me more of a pedophile than I ever want to be. Thank heavens only the maknae, Taemin, is younger than me. Both my biases in SHINee are older than me. Yesss. I have permission to drool.

It was probably love at 20th sight with Jonghyun, and drool at 20th sight with Key. Nothing wrong with taking my time before consciously deciding to become a SHINee fan. Even though it was love at first sight with Jaejoong and Kyuhyun, it took me perhaps 50 performances to fall in love with Junsu and Yesung. And I don’t love them any less.

I wouldn’t blame the SHINee boys for this…delayed spurt of love on my part. I would place the blame on their stylists and songwriters. The true lovable characters of these boys aren’t disclosed from live performances which are SM’s pride and joy but the boys’ hard work and toil. It takes candid moments, although even these instances are recorded by a camera or observed by a watchful eye, or otherwise I wouldn’t be able to feast myself upon tidbits of their blooming lives. The radio shows and Music Bank wins are what have endeared the boys, specifically Jonghyun, to me beyond anything I have previously felt.

My first impression of Jonghyun: WOW. I was terribly prejudiced against young, newbie groups the first time I ever laid eyes on him. But honestly, I was stunned speechless by his vocals. Nothing soft or gentle or sweet or tender. It was so, so RAW. Strong, deep, powerful, unyielding, even invincible. His voice reflects his character, too. Jonghyun is the straightforward sort of guy, one who is bold enough to say what he wants and how he feels, thus giving him a ‘bad boy’ image on the surface (and in appearance…oh those striking eyes and gorgeous cheekbones). To leader Onew, Jonghyun is the kindest SHINee member, one who is “always thinking after others silently and secretly, in a way that is not done openly and takes care of the people around him in this way.” Jonghyun of course praises Onew as the most caring and considers himself the “lousiest” (least kind/thoughtful) in the group. By this I bet he’s referring to his bad boy exterior, but underneath he’s actually a big softie.

Want proof? Here it is: SHINee’s Music Bank Win for ‘Juliette’

(Oh, and here are English/Karaoke subs of a hot Ring Ding Dong performance…Jonghyun sure doesn’t need to tell me that he’s a ‘decent guy.’ :P )

Oh my darling Jonghyun…to see a man crying out loud, on stage, in the full view of millions…this can only show how much he’s dedicated to his music, how much effort and hard work he invested in the song he composed, which he is finally being rewarded for. My heart was pounding, my hands were trembling, my eyes were watering at that moment…to see generous and caring Yesung hug and protect Jonghyun again and again, and similarly Siwon holding Onew…it was that moment when I went from just a fan to a devoted admirer and supporter of SHINee. The boys have a long and challenging road ahead of them, and I want to see them grow, learn, succeed, and make mistakes every step of the way. Although Jonghyun is my oppa, I sometimes feel like a protective noona or something. Whatever, regardless, I’m taking him home with me. xD

I am sure that in love, too, he isn’t two-faced and doesn’t play games or sulk in petty jealousies. His ideal kiss (excuse me while I faint) is so simple compared to the other boys’, yet I find myself yearning for it the most. He’s a realistic sort of romantic who wants to kiss under the streetlights by the girl’s home before he leaves after sending her home. *dies*

Now, as for Key…what can I say, he’s the triple threat! Vocalist, rapper, dancer, not to mention a gifted varsity water-skier. He looks super hot in his slick hairstyle, even when his hair is dyed that beautiful dark rainbow of reds, purples, and greens. I wonder how his partially shaved hairstyle in Lucifer will fare. Unfortunately I do nothing but drool over Key, as some elements of his personality, and his description of the ideal woman, do not appeal to me. Physical attraction to him only. As for leader Onew, physically he is not my type, but I LOVE his personality. Meanwhile, I love practically everything about Jonghyun, thus establishing him as my bias. :P

If anyone has read up to this point…wow, thank you for bearing with me. But I must emphasize that although I tend to drool a lot, even in my dreams, I do this only in my spare time or when completing mundane chores or exercising. I mean, when my heart is already beating so powerfully and I’m bored out of my mind yet physically engaged, why not? Although I DO have an unchangeable habit of gluing myself to the screen whenever my boys are featured, I can’t be obsessed with them 24/7. So I guess what I’m trying to say is that I may be excessively devoted, but not yet truly insane. My idols are my stress-relievers, my haven especially whenever I get sick from listening to the repetitive screeching of my crude and hypocritical parents.

So this is why I’m so thankful, so blessed, to be able to enjoy the music and dance of boys who have each sacrificed so much in their lives, not to selfishly gain fame and fortune, but to pursue their dreams and share their talents with people like me who are as far from the spotlight as can be. I feel like I have known these idols my whole life, but I am nothing more than a complete stranger to them. Indeed I can do so little to support them. I can’t cheer on for them from the audience when they perform on stage, I can’t help with their song recording, dance choreography, or promotions, I can’t award them the honors they deserve, I can’t hold them when they cry. We are geographically, linguistically, and occupationally so far, yet I foolishly hope to be close to them in spirit for the celebration of humankind’s greatest pleasures: song and dance.

With that said, I eagerly await the release of SHINee’s second studio album, Lucifer, which will come out today in Korea. For the first time I am on time for a new album release! I am super excited to see the boys evolve from cute to hot to finally sexy. Mmmmm.

Edit: WOW. Every song on Lucifer is…*dies* Quasimodo is my favorite, even though I don’t understand any of the lyrics.

Taemin Minho Jonghyun Key Onew

Keep SHINing, my boys. ♥

Phenomenal Dance Covers

FOUR DAYS OF INCESSANT DROOL. If lightning struck me right now I would still retain the dumbstruck expression that’s been on my face for several days. I have always been a music aficionada, but I never thought I would one day become so intensely captivated by DANCE that I actually forget about anything else going on in my life! After all, dancing is on my list of ultimate fail activities (along with swimming and drawing), none of which I can attempt satisfactorily even to save my life. Okay, well maybe I can swim a bit to save my life, but the others are true fail.

So, this Monday a light bulb lit up in my drool-occupied mind. I remember being totally engrossed in some Mirotic cover dances a few months back. 5-man performances in Korea and Thailand, and even one in a Massachusetts college by female students! Audiences cheered them on like they were the real thing. I was so impressed with the accuracy of their dance moves compared to the original DBSK dance. Well, a few days into July, I was about to be knocked off my socks by a single dancer. Not that I’m wearing any socks in this ridiculous heat anyway.

You ready? Say yes. Okay then, here’s his YouTube channel: DarrenTP

If you have any interest in any popular music at all, SUBSCRIBE. NOW.

I will refrain from the first comment that I’m itching to bellow out to whoever prowls my blog. (That blunt but honest comment is, “AIN’T HE GORGEOUS?!”) I didn’t just say that. Let’s focus on his dancing. He’s completely self-taught and has only started dancing frequently for about a year. It takes him anywhere from just half an hour to two hours to get down all the moves to any dance song. Maybe a little more to perfect the dance. That alone is a pretty impressive feat.

But the actual dancing is what should cause all of your jaws to drop to the ground. Holy moly! THAT BOY CAN MOVE!! I’m not kidding. There is a beautiful fluidity, a liquid grace, in Darren’s movements that I haven’t seen in professional performers, much less in amateurs. Throw in charisma and attractiveness, and here we have it: the first dancer to make poor little me’s knees wobble in awestruck delight.

I watch every one of his dance covers carefully so that I don’t miss the best details: his adorable smiles whenever he does a happy dance or makes a tiny mistake in adjusting his attire, pelvic thrusts, placing hands on that lovely location around the center of his belt, moonwalks, gliding, sexy shoulder rolls, body waves, beautiful footwork, spins, mouthing the lyrics, flouncing hair, popping, ripping his singlet, dancing in a blazer with no shirt underneath, exposing his chocolate abs…aaah I could go on forever but I’m already out of breath, haha.

And something else to admire is the variety of the dances he covers. There are the manly dances like Mirotic and HEY (Don’t bring me down), purely sexy dances like Love Song and I Need a Girl, suave dances like Wedding Dress, cute dances like Balloons, and even girl dances like Lupin, Oh!, Run Devil Run, and Gee. I think it’s incredible that he can dance moves clearly most suitable/appropriate for girls without any apprehension. Take that, you jealous and narrow-minded sorry bunch of YouTube critics.

So I thought even though none of the dances he does are mirrored, I could still learn a few moves and use the videos as tutorials of sorts, right? Wrong. I thought Gee would be easiest, since it’s a girl dance, but man he even does girly moves better than me. -__- Medium fail. Then I tried Purple Line. Except for the motions occurring during “Purple Line let me set up my world,” I couldn’t keep up with the rapid moves at all. Ultimate fail. Out of breath, I tried Wedding Dress. The movements that I could reasonably do in a small space with headphones on weren’t too bad. Somewhat fail. And I attempted all this using his nearly perfect, full perspective dances. Now I can fully appreciate how he got all the moves down from MVs that always jump between singing/dance/story footage and feature way too many dancers. I take my hat off to Darren.

I admit Darren’s completely got me under some sort of spell. Usually I am a total grammar nazi and can’t stand the sight of no capitalization, no apostrophes, and excessive abbreviations and chatspeak. But he’s young and busy, so I’ll overlook it. Especially when that’s all totally overshadowed by his sense of humor, decency, kindness, and superb talents (dancing, singing, guitar, and excellent drawing). Did I mention that he’s an Australian-born Chinese who admires DBSK above all other Korean groups and still likes fandoms like Gundams, Pokemon, and Dragon Ball Z? Well if you know me, that’s CHECK CHECK CHECK CHECK (on my imaginary ideal guy list) WHOPPEE!!!! After all, I lived in Australia for three years, am also Chinese, am an eternal fan and supporter of DBSK and find it fantastic that they have such an amazing male fan as well, and love Gundams and other nerdy fandoms! :D

Haha, but the problem is, I’m going to have to totally shatter my “can’t like younger guys” philosophy. He’s 16 and I’m nearly 18, which makes a 14-month or so age difference, even though a few months back he said he’d be fine dating in the age range 15-18. Not to mention that because of his height (185cm), the ideal girl for him would be 168-172cm, which he later changed to 165-172cm and finally changed to “anything above 155cm is fine.” LOL it stinks to be shorter than even his minimum requirement. xD And of course I can’t forget that he still lives in the land down under. :P

But I did manage to ask him two questions anonymously on his formspring. And since I ask the most polite and literate of the current total of 914 questions…I get the nicest and longest responses. Even though he answered my last question at 1AM Melbourne time, which was just a few hours ago. :P I’m going to dispel the anonymity and post my questions. It doesn’t matter since I’ve also commented abundantly on the YouTube videos and his Facebook fan page, so just exactly what I think of him is still a mystery to the public. xD

Hi Darren, do you have any siblings or pets? Also, would you be willing to do a cover for Boom Boom by Super Junior? :) I think your dancing is phenomenal! I will always support you. ^_^

thanks ^^ i prob wont be doing boom boom.. i got a younger sis n no pets :)

What’s your favorite Gundam model and series? :-) And are you a fan of Bulma?

bulma? x) shes cuter than chichi atleast LOL ummm freedom ! i love kiras gundam

Darn, no cover of the hot Boom Boom dance. :P But at least we have a favorite Gundam in common, LOL. Random extra comments: I adore Australian accents. And the outfit he wore in the Wedding Dress cover.

I think I’m going to dub Darren the ‘prince of kpop dance covers.’ Because he is.

Edit: I couldn’t resist asking another question. I’m terrible. :P

Your dance outfits are so suave! My favorite is the attire you wore for your first Wedding Dress cover. Will you wear it for a cover in the future? I totally swooned when you wore that one. :D I’m introducing your channel to friends like crazy, haha. :)

thanks a lot XD i like to try pick clothes that suit the dance.. sometimes doesnt come out right XD

Edit 2: Another question. He’s so humble. :P

So how are you liking Tumblr? :) I prefer regular blogging but I might just get one to follow you. :P Ah, you shirtless at the end of the preview really surprised me…you’re making even us older girls blush happily. @_@ And you ARE as fine as Taeyang!

LOL i am no where near as fine as taeyang :( hmm tumblr is ok.. stupid how you cant comment or anything.. but yeh ^^


My comment: Yay, congrats! :)

Yep you reached exactly 2,000 subscribers at July 10 1:18am in your time zone because I had accidentally refreshed your YouTube page at that time while messaging my friend and then told her about it. Haha, no creepy intentions on my part. :P

His comment: woah o.o LOL thanks for tht LOL! i was like sleeping XD

I. am. such. a. creep.